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I was at home yesterday just thinking about what Jesus means to me. He is my redeemer, my counselor, my God, my savior, and my best friend.I got to thinking about all he has brought me through in the last 4 years. and He has taught me that my strength comes from the word of my testimony. I have felt that I need to share my testimony for some time. I don't know if it will encourage anyone, but if you know of someone or yourself that is in the same position I found myself in, I pray that they would run to Jesus and another trusted friend here on earth that would help them.

After I graduated from high school, I kind of went crazy. I started sleeping around with men, that I really didn;t know. I lost my virginity to a man that I later broke up with after he hit me, he immediately apologized, but I called it quits. He was from Honduras. After him, I slept with 2 other men, both from Costa Rica. I look back now and still wonder what I was thinking. I strayed from my relationship with Jesus. I still went to churh, but there was no relationship with Jesus. While working at a printing factory I met Henry, a black man that was on work release from jail. He told me everything I wanted to hear, I was beautiful, he loved me and wanted to marry me. I never found out what he was in jail for until after he got out. I moved in with him Feb 2001, and everything went okay for awhile. Money soon began to disappear, there was never enough money for bills. I found out that my boyfriend was addicted to crack cocaine, he was spending $300 a week on crack. I soon found myself pregnant and afraid to leave. We moved a lot because we couldn;t keep up with the rent. My son, Henry was born in jan 02 and 3 months later, i was pregnant again. I moved into a mobile home that was not fit for a rat to live in, and had my daughter Aliyah in
jan 03. The lights were cut off b/c we owed $700 to the light company. My boyfriend got arrested for an old warrant, and the day he went to jail, my kids were taken from me. I moved and got my kids back the next day.

In feb 04 I had enough, we were looking at having to move again, and my boyfriend was doing more crack cocaine than ever before. He had started to hit me, threaten to kill me, and I decided it was finally time to leave.

I moved to arkanas with a 2 year old and a 1 year old. almost 1 year to the day that i left south carolina, I met my husband. God restored everything that satan had tried to steal from me. God is my kinsman redeemer. I hope that someone will read this and remember

1. Jesus is never too busy to hear your cry or listen to you.

2. Jesus wants to give back to you everything that the enemy has stolen.
3. If you find yourself in an abusive relationship thinking you cant do it on your own, know that Jesus never intended for you to stay. He's waiting with his arms open wide to hug you and help you and that there are people out there to help, you just have to ask.

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Henry and Aliyah got a snow day yesterday. Thank goodness I was off work or I would have had to take them with me, in laws are sick and my mom lives too far away to babysit.

I watched a really good movie with Denzel Washington in it. Man of Fire, it's based on a true story, which I like, because it is more beleivable than some of the other movies I've seen. A funny movie we watched was Without a Paddle. If you need a good laugh, watch this one.

When is the magical age that kids sleep in? Henry and Aliyah were awake at 6 am yesterday and on the weekends. I guess I need to enjoy it, before I know it they will be teeanagers wanting to sleep all day.

I took Henry to see his doc for ADD yesterday, and they upped his dosage. He is still having some behavvioral problems in school, but his speech is improving! He tends to mumble a lot, or talk really soft, which really irritates me.

stuff about me

Hi to evreryone who actually reads this. It has been a very long time since I have written but, since I don't have a computer, it is hard to blog. Let's see Herny celebrated his 6th birthday on the 17th of Jan. and Aliyah will celebrate hers on the 25th. She will be 5. How they grow up so fast!

I fractured my left foot on Jan. 5, but didn't go to the ER until sunday, jan. 6. Come to find out it was broke, and that explained the intense pain anytime i tried to put pressure on it. How did it happen, no Nick didn't do it. We were cleaning up our yard, and a metal utility trailer with a bunch of junk (old recliner chair, trash in general, and a couple fo kerosene heaters) when it fell of the stump we had the tongue propped on, and it fell on my foot. Nick felt so bad, bless his heart. He said move, but i couldn't move fast enough.
So I am in a walking boot, that feels like it weighs a ton, and cannot go back to work until the first of Feb.

We are all doing fine, although as of right now, it is so cold outside that the washer has frozen and I am at my sisters house doing laundry.

on tuesday, it is every kids dream, presents that they have been looking at can finally be opened.
Why is it that satan tries to steal our joy in the little things? My husband and I got into an argument because I went and bought a memory card for my camera, which I had told him he could get me for christmas. I guess I was in the wrong, but my thinking was I could store the 10 pictures I have on it, and be able to take pictures on sat. ( the kids are going to a christmas party and santa will be there). He blew up and said he wasn't getting me anything for christmas, because I took his joy away. Now, if I don't get him something for christmas, then he's going to be upset, so it seems like a no win situation.

It seems that we are barely getting by, living paycheck to paycheck stinks, esp. around the holidays and then in Jan. we have Henry and Aliyah's birthdays also. But, God has provided everything we have needed, money has been tight at times this past year, but we have had enough to pay all the bills, buy food, and such. It's amazing to me to look back on 2007 and look at all the blessings and how far we have come.

In this past year, I had the opportunity to help both my children ask Jesus into their hearts! Talk about a humbling experience! They both came to me with their decsion and Aliyah has shown a lot of difference.

She wanted a snack after daycare 1 one day, I told her no, so she kicked me, I spanked her and put her in timeout on her bed for 5 min. all this time she is crying and asking me not to tell daddy. I told her If you can lay quietly, I won't. As soon as Nick got home , she comes running out the room crying and tells on herself. I couln't help but laugh. Later as I thought about it, I could see God at work. she knew she had done something wrong and it bugged her. You cant' tell me that children are not in tune to the Lord.

We finally got an answer for Henry's behaviour problem. He has ADD, he has started on medication and does so much better in school, church,, and everywher else.
okay, i have talked long enough, this will probably be my last blog till after the new year, so everyone have a merry christmas and happy new year.

out of the loop

hi everybody,
i went to batesville with a friend today to take her daughter for her check-up, and i forgot how much work and how much fun having a small baby is. I got to drive her new car, a 2007 HHR, it drives so smooth, i think i just found my next car. only $16,000. dont think so.

aliyah is too smart for her own good. she is trying to teach henry how to sound out words, when she barely knows herself. henry is working on his L sounds in speech and is doing pretty good. we make a game out of it, so he doesn't get frustrated so easily.

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okay, I'm new at this type of stuff, so give me some time and I'll work on it.
I finally got all my christmas shopping done earlythis year. Do I have them wrapped yet, of course not, between working and 2 kids and a husband who insists I spend my waking hours giving him attention, yeah I'll keep dreaming. Maybe the wrap faires will come while I sleep...

I got a new digital camera for christmas from my parents and have no compuetr to download the pics on, so they sit on my camera till i can get to wal-mart, the only big store in my little town. If you haven't seen someone in a while, hang out at wal-mart and you will eventually see them. that's all for now, just a bunch of random thoughts.